So this is my quandry...I really love this template. My problem is that with my other layout, I used a black table, and every entry had it's own html code for that table...*thanks rick, btw* But previous entries cannot be viewed because of this black table, and the archive page isn't working very well, and I contacted the owner of the site I got the template from...but I think what I'm going to do is just delete all of it. Me being the packrat that I am, thinking about deleting all those entries makes me shudder, but you know, the more I think about it, the better of an idea it really becomes...I need to start over, new chapter of my life, all new entries. I know what's been going on with me, I know I've been a member of diaryland for a few years now...and I'm too damn lazy to archive. So I'm cleaning house folks. Bye bye old shit.

I have a new guestbook, sign it if you wish, no one ever does so don't worry too much about it...and uh, I think that's it for now. Alright. I'm back, an hour later, having deleted all 181 of my old diary entries. There should be an easier way to do that than the way I just did it, that shit was tedious. That was harder than I thought too. I noticed most of my entries were named Blah, bah or eh, and the hardest ones to erase were the ones with Kevin in them. I don't know why really, I don't have any deep love for him anymore...if I knew he was suffering or needed something from me, I'd be there, I would shoot someone for him, because of everything we shared and went through, my god, I loved that boy with everything I had in me at the time. And it ended badly and it was my fault that it did, I walked away from the mass destruction of it, not really regretting it and I don't regret it now. If I hadn't of walked I wouldn't have Jonathan or Mark. Two most important things in my little world right now, are those two, both my men. -Petra

written on 2002-08-09 at 3:08 a.m. by sweetsolace.

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