The child is dancing...twirling and trampling over my vital organs, making my belly visibly shake, like something out of some awful horror movie.

It's...REVENGE OF THE ANGRY BABY!

So cream of wheat is no longer on my list of likes, for the time being. It retains it's creamy smoothness on it's way up, let me tell you.

Reading through some of the locals diarys today...I feel like such a loser. A waste of space and talent. It's hard to believe someone my age is already graduated from college, and if I had of done what I was supposed to, I would be graduated from college too. My kingdom for the chance to go back to high school with the knowledge I have now...

Former Miss America Heather White has made it back into the news. She was the first deaf Miss America for those who don't know...and she's going to be on some news show, she's going to be hearing her childrens voices for the first time. I can only assume she got a cochlear implant. Some new thing, implanted in your ear that gets turned on after so long of being implanted. It's not insto-hearing or anything, it helps you learn to hear if that makes sense. I wonder. Modern medicine is an amazing thing, and the human race has come so far with what they can do. Is there a moral limit? A point where we should say, God or some other Supreme High Being did not intend for it to be this way? Heather White touched so many lives and made a difference with the title of Miss America to so many people...would she have done the same thing if she could hear like me and you? Would her ballet dancing be less poignant or beautiful if she could hear all of the music instead of dancing to vibrations? Here's another tangent...Christopher Reeve. Superman, fell off a horse and is now paralyzed. A man with a public face and lots of money to back it up. Would spine research and development be where it is without someone with a lot of money to become that way and want to change it? The layman couldn't...he could just sit in his chair and remember the days he could walk, run, see the world from the doorknobs up. Because he doesn't have the means to change it. ANOTHER thing, one of the recipients of the famed Abiocore heart celebrated a birthday today, and is doing quite wonderfully, chipper and healthy...eating cake surrounded by family and friends...no one would suspect a robotic heart is keeping this man alive. Is that right? Are we going to keep pushing technology until we can replace everything that fails and live forever? IS there a moral limit? Even if it does good...is it right? Shouldn't we just accept our fates and make the best of it?

Bah.

Sometimes I think about that abiocore heart. Usually just when I hear about it on the news...with some slight bitterness. The first sucessful implant was done in Jewish Medical Hospital, downtown Louisville...the hospital where my grandfather died. Pa had a bad heart. Doctors marveled that he was still alive, because he had such a bad heart. Less than a year after he died I heard about the implant. And the man who received it, was on deaths door. 80 some odd years old, pnuemonia and a failing heart, wasn't expected to live throughout the week. And he was their test subject, guinea pig. And, considering the newness of the technology and the massive surgery, came out of it pretty much ok. Why did this man get an extension on life? How did he deserve it more, why did fate smile on him and not Charles Henry Digges? Why did I have to lose my Pa...and so many other grandfathers and husbands and fathers get all these chances to live.

eech...didn't mean for the entry to go this route.

-Petra

written on 2002-09-13 at 2:07 p.m. by sweetsolace.

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