Should be in bed, but I need to wind down first. Earlier in the day was so nice, just spending it with Mark, laying around, watching tv and playing video games...and then I tried to call my grandmother and evidently she's not in too good of a mood, she told mom to shove it basically and seems she's not going to be there for thanksgiving. Which is almost fine by me, Omi of late seems to be more of an empty shell than my grandmother, she's broken somehow...and I'm tired of dealing with her adolencent antics. I have so much more to worry about, although I do try and make things a little better for mom because I know she has such a hard time too, and Omi is almost too much for her to deal with. So I guess sometimes it's like taking one for the team.

Went to the show last night, and it wasn't the best of nights for Caustic. Since steromud was playing, and them being a national act, everything was so rushed and fucked up, and some bands didn't know how to do a sound check evidently so most of them just wasted time. But Caustic was very professional, setting up and taking down, short sound check and the set wasn't too bad, and I've heard better shows, but well they weren't in good spirits so it's forgiveable.

I took Jonathan to the doc the other day for his two month check up and she said he's a very healthy baby and is doing quite well in all areas...I'm sure it helped that when she first saw him he gave her one of his precious smiles, which are few and far between because he is quite the serious baby. He weighs 10 lbs and is 20 inches long, and she said he is short, but well, since I am the mother it is to be expected.

Mark called Jenni today about Grace and her birthday is coming up soon, and we'll be going down there for her party. Kind of nervous about it, I almost feel like I'm crashing it. Maybe I'm not welcome there. But I do try and make myself affable to Jenni, because I know if I am going to be with Mark, I need to be able to handle that she's going to be a presence in his life. And I try to remain neutral on things because frankly, they are none of my business, but I do care about how Grace is handled, and I hope that it isn't too big of a deal for her to not have her whole family there, and to do it in sections. It's sad really, how selfish I think she is being, but who am I, I've only been a mother for a minute or so. But I know it bothers Mark. As to how much I don't know because he doesn't talk about it too much, but I hope he knows he can always tell me anything and I'll lend my ear and my advice and my love and try my hardest not to judge. *hint*

I took some pics today of me and Mark and the baby, and if anyone who cares enough to read this cares enough to see them drop me a line via guestbook or email and I would be more than happy to oblige with a pic or 10. I love showing off my babies, they are so very important to me. I have a family of my own that I am very proud of and that I love very much. Life is good. It could be better but for now life is good.

-Petra

written on 2002-11-25 at 12:25 a.m. by sweetsolace.

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