Oh lord I am tired. Been up since Mark left for work cleaning and whatnot...taking a break from folding clothes. Yesterday was quite not the day for me. I got some bad news about my general health to be so unspecific it's not funny...and I'm having a problem getting my medication as it's very expensive. I guess we'll figure something out.

I really feel like being in bed today. I don't want to do anything, I just wanna wallow in my own misery like I used to just once. Back before I had responsibilities, I would spend a day or two if things were bad in bed, or vegging in front of the computer, or out just being miserable. I'd lay in bed and cry or something if things got too hard. And I want that so bad right now. Just to lay in bed and cry. I'm so tired, I mentally, physically...I need a vacation even if it's only a couple hours. I don't want to cook tonight, I want to watch t.v. or a movie, smoke my cigarettes and drink my coke and relax. And not move. And then go to bed with Mark and sleep. And not move.

Awwwww! Petra is having a bad day...*sniff* I'll get over it.

Well, back to my grind.

-Petra

(please update Mark...pppllllleeeeasssseee)

written on 2003-04-04 at 11:27 a.m. by sweetsolace.

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