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I like how I give you one condition, one term and you turn it into a list of demands. Well, I will semi-humor you. The hoodie has dissapeared into a land of which I don't know. It is not in my house as everything has been cleaned out and any vestige of my once having lived there is gone. The Dungeon and Dragon books of which you speak I am hoping to be the 2nd edition, and those I do have in my fathers garage along with your DD-214's. You are most welcome to them. As for the 3rd edition...*shrugs* Those seem to be lost as well as my first character Lillith. The Jay and Silent Bob DVD I will return but the Quills I will not as it is not yours as much as it is not mine and I see no reason to give it to you. I will contact Sara and discuss it with her. Let me know when you want to make the exchange, and we'll set it up but please do understand as my wedding is coming up Sunday this week I am extremely busy.

As for you borrowing my grandfathers books to photocopy...I don't understand how you could find the audacity to even think that I would let you do that...Josh told me that when you returned Pa's books to me you deliberately withheld that one from me using the statement that "All I would do is put it on a shelf." Damn straight. He was my grandfather and those were his books and became mine and they were mine to do with what I pleased, not for you to decide if what I did with them were deserving of the value. I find it so hard to fathom that you, knowing how much I loved that man and still grieve for him, to this very day, could keep one of his possesions from me. And when I found that book of yours, I knew that it would be only right to return it, but at a price. An eye for an eye my friend. I had resolved myself at one point to never seeing that book again but I was so happy when I discovered your grandfather's book, because I knew you'd want it just like I want mine. Pa's things are hard to come by, just like yours. And precious and few and far between. I have no intention of ever lending anyone, no matter who they are, those books, for fear they would be destroyed or lost, or worse stolen. And I probably never will get into martial arts, but they are important to me because they were his, and I'm sure you could apprieciate that.

And for the value you said it holds, I doubt it. Because if a book were truly worth that much, anyone would have sold it. And it doesn't even matter to me. I don't know the value of yours, but just the fact that Tolkein is so popular now and that happens to be a second edition hardcover in awesome condition, save the cover and what appears to be child crayon scribble in the front of the book. Which, I swear I did not do. Nor anyone in this house as Little Madames crayons were taken away due to her using the walls as her canvas a couple of months ago.

You don't trust me? You think I care? Those chapters of my life are closed and done with. Thank God. The part of my life that had you in it were, I'd have to say, one of the darkest times in my life. And I came away having learned so much, that I'm almost glad it happened. I am a different person because of it. Because of it, I have the best thing God could have ever given me, and that's Jonathan. There isn't a day goes by that I am not glad he's here, no matter what I went through to get him. Best to leave it at that. So you don't trust me. So what.

Like I said, let me know when you want your things, and I will be more than happy to return them. And I didn't know I still had that book or you would have had it months ago.

-Petra

written on 2003-07-02 at 1:06 a.m. by sweetsolace.

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